07:27 pm, shyuswag

In the midst of all this solid food knowledge, I can’t forget that there is a lavish feast waiting for me at the feet of Jesus.

After last night’s epiphany, God really met me at church this morning. It was the first time in a while I could feel His presence speaking to me.

A phrase that kept coming back to me was, “You knew so much before.” As in, I understood the weight of the Gospel so much more when I barely knew anything about it. It seemed contradictory to me at first. But thinking about it biblically, it started to…

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09:18 pm, shyuswag
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I introduce myself to others as a very devout Christian. But it’s all a lie.

I remember watching a video a while ago of a group of Christians in Asia receiving a copy of the Bible for the first time in their lives. The image of their sobs of joy remain vivid in my memory. Some of them may have been recently saved despite the persecution and pressures of everything surrounding them. They may have had to go by a handful of memorized verses in their house church services.…

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07:33 pm, shyuswag
His Plan

As I lay on my side, curled into a ball, voices cry out to me from the dark.Having that conversation with him was a mistake.
Falling too deep for her was a mistake.
Arguing about that was a mistake.

You’re never going to completely heal.
Reconciliation is hopeless.
You’re not ready; you’re never going to be ready.
Why would you even believe there’s a chance?

Every decision you make is going to be…

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07:00 pm, shyuswag
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Trusting Knowledge

If He leads me away from dental school, so be it. Because His plan is better.

School starts in three days. As excited as I am, I’m also getting more and more nervous. 

I keep thinking about what I would do if, by some circumstance, dental school is taken away from me. What if going to this school in New York is pulled out from under me like a carpet trick? What would I do? 

I’ve prayed tirelessly for this door to open as my next step. I’ve literally spent years preparing…

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08:12 pm, shyuswag

In a time of feeling downtrodden and sinful, I laid in bed almost crying, “I am so dirty. I am not…

In a time of feeling downtrodden and sinful, I laid in bed almost crying, “I am so dirty. I am not worthy.”

He immediately answered, “I are clean. I am worthy. And I love you.”

Thankful for a God who is as empathetic as He is holy. 

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11:31 am, shyuswag

I struggled, hoping that God would be faithful to see me through the battle.

Spent the past two hours just basking in my Lord’s presence. As I was meditating, I was listening to some worship music on my iPod.

10:27 am, shyuswag
Cessationism, Charismania and Criticism

Cessationism, Charismania and Criticism

Originally posted on Lisa Robinson:

shouting guys_anger managementMy heart was a bit heavy as I witnessed the blogosphere light up today over John MacArthur’s Strange Fire conference and the broad brush stroke polemics against Charismatics. I appreciated Michael Patton’s thoughts on the subject.

Now to be clear, I am not a Charismatic. But I used to be and commitedly so – third wave, direct experience (direct communication…

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09:58 am, shyuswag
One Week In

It’s been about a week since I’ve been in New York. Here are some things I’ve experienced so far

It’s been about a week since I’ve been in New York. Here are some things I’ve experienced so far:

  • There are a LOT of people. Seriously, they’re everywhere haha. I think it’s cause so many people walk around instead of driving (cause driving is a terrifying experience; more on this later). It’s been cool already seeing such a rich diversity of people here, something San Diego definitely did not…

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08:55 pm, shyuswag
An Open Letter to Kairos Christian Church

To my beloved Kairos Christian Church,

The moment I have been dreading is upon us. In less than two days, I’ll be on a flight to New York City. I’m writing this letter a couple of weeks before my last Sunday with you all, and I hope I didn’t bawl like a baby during service today haha. But even if there is time before I leave as I write this, I stand between two very conflicting emotions when I…

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03:29 pm, shyuswag

This past year was rough, but I’ve moved on, and I’m moving on.

A lot of times, I’m waiting for some sort of event to change me. I’m looking forward to my move to the east coast in less than a week, and a part of me still clings to the idea that this move is gonna be what sweeps away the dirtiest parts of my life. But a change in scenery will not necessarily bring change. I remember also thinking that college would change the unrefined portions of my life.…

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